Sunday, 3/16/08

Today is the first day I feel slightly human again. I've had the flu for the past week. Haven't been that sick since I was a kid. My throat felt like I was swallowing glass chunks every time I swallowed. But I'm on the mend now. Amazing what an antibiotic can do for a human body. Wish there was a magic pill you take for 5 days that could get rid of fat. I guess the diet industry would go broke if it was that easy for all of us "chunky girls". You fellow dieters can call me Rose, after my favorite flower. I am an Insurance broker. Not a glamorous job, but one that is very fulfilling to my spirit. I help the elderly understand the insanity of our health care system so they can make an educated decision about which health insurance plan will work best for them as they begin their new life with Medicare health insurance. I get alot of hugs from grandparent type people. Every day is a little different from the one before. Most of the people are very kind, occasionally you'll get a grumpy one, though not too often. I am choosing to do this challenge because I cannot lose this weight by myself. That is a difficult thing for me to say, as I am a very independent woman and do pretty much everything else by myself. I have a man in my life with a serious heart condition, so there isn't alot he does to assist in my day to day life. He does sit on the lawn mower and mow the yard, and he will fold laundry. And boy does he like to eat!! Something I would love to do more of but wouldn't be able to fit through the door if I did. I truly believe that I need to exercise for at least one hour, if not more, every single day, maybe taking only Sunday's off. My hope is that with the encouragement of all the new friends I am going to make, I will make myself go to the gym every day, just so I won't disappoint all of you. They say if you do something for 21 days straight, you have created a new habit. So in 21 days I should be so addicted to going to the gym, that hopefully I will not want to stop. The problem is figuring out how to keep my man's illness from getting in the way of my best intentions. Sometimes he is ill, or his mom is ill, and I'm running back and forth to the hospital. These are the times when I put myself on the back burner and get forgotten about. And before you know it. There it is .......my fat butt is back. So I need to learn how to always put that ONE HOUR for me at the gym, above everything and everyone else. That seems so selfish. But I must always remind myself that if I am not healthy, I am no good to anyone else that needs me. Right? So it's ok to be selfish for that ONE HOUR each day. Well, as far as my health right now, getting over the flu, feel yukky today, should feel better tomorrow and even better the next day. Have no health concerns. No diabetes or high blood pressure or high cholesterol, heart is healthy. I'm just fat. Well friends, tata4now, I'll write again in a day or so.